New Breath Of Life.

Its funny how one moment, one thought that goes through your head could potentially change your life.

All my life I feel that I haven't achieved my full potential, or achieve what i always wanted to achieve.
I go to bed at night thinking of a better me, a person who is fulfilling all his dreams. It makes me smile. It makes me feel better. It takes me to sleep.

It may sound silly, or even obvious, but I really only realised now that if you want something done, if you want to change yourself, if you want to be a happier and better person you must take the initiative. Your must take the chance, you HAVE to. Nobody else is going to do it for you. Its not going to happen by chance, your not going to wake up one morning and be a different person. I suppose you could say its sad that it has taken me 19 years to realise this.

I want to be better, I want to look different, I want to be fitter, I want to quit smoking, I want a better life. I cannot wait around for this to happen. I cannot pray to god for this, he isnt going to do it for me, i have to do it.

I need to take more risks, with every aspect in my life. If I keep going the way im going, im going to become more unhealthy, fat, ugly, get through my degree with the lowest possible achievments, get a shit job, stay in this crappy country and be unhappy forever.

I cannot let this happen. I must break from my mould, I need to try new things and stop letting my life pass me by.

Im not saying tomorrow morning i'm going to go to the gym, quit smoking, buy new clothes, study and take up guitar. Its not going to happen that fast. I just hope this realisation of what my life has been up to this point will give me a wake up call. I will change, I must change and I look forward to what I will become and what I will achieve. You only have one life. Why waste it. There is too much out there to do, too many different things to experience out there, I cannot miss any of these things. Im not going to let my life become the same as everyone elses. Get a job, get a girlfriend, get engaged, get married, buy a house, have kids. I only have two words for this, Fuck That.

I've always wanted a new breath of life and I think I've just found it.