Strange Times.

Alot of strange things have happened to me in the past few days. Most of them being bad. First of all on thursday night, i got pretty close to this girl who i would of always regard as one my my best friends and would see her as more of a sister than someone who i would be interested in physically.She probably didnt think it was a big deal (all we did was sleep in my bed) but im pretty sure there was some chemistry there that we were both trying to ignore. However she is just out of a very long relationship as am I. Maybe its just natural that these feelings come about because you realise that you are actually both single and that its quite possible that something could happen. Anyway it will be interesting to see where this goes, i still havent decided if i want to pursue her. I doubt i will, because its one of those girls where if i was to get involved then it would have to be a relationship which i am most definetly not ready to commit to yet as i have just gotten out of a long and serious relationship which has affected me alot emotionally.

So with these thoughts on my mind about the night before, i would have no idea of what was to happen over the coming weekend. Driving to college on friday morning (pretty hungover at that), i didnt park in the most smart position, so DCU decided to clamp my poor little car and give me a hefty 80 euro fine in the process.....Cheers.
After this lecture(which i really regret going to by the way) i got ready to go home to Limerick, picked up two of my friends and we hit the road. The rain was pretty heavy that day, and i took my eye off the road for a split second to look at petrol prices, next thing i know my friend Conor shouts my name, and then BANG. I rear ended this car who broke suddenly right in front of me.
I have never felt so strange when this happened, so many thoughts are running through your head such as, "are the people in my car ok?", "is the woman in the car in front of me ok?", "how much damage has been done to my car and hers",and the most dominant one "Did this actually just happen?" All of these go through your head in the matter of seconds and its quite scary and overwhelming. To cut a long story short, there wasnt any damage to her but she qas complaining of a pain in her neck, shit. My car was pretty fucked but i drove on home anyway. She still hasn't rang to let me know what the craic is and im not sure if that is a good or a bad sign.

On the way home i got a text message from my friend Dave, as i was in the car i wasnt able to read it fully and i told myself i would read it later.
The next day i got a phonecall from a very good friend of mine, and he said straight away to me "Did you get Dave's text message? " i could hear the emotion and quiver in his voice and i knew something bad had happened. I soon found out that a friend of ours from DCU was involved in a hit and run in Budapest a few days back and she had now passed away, (RIP Aoife).
It really put things in perspective, she was just like all of us, young, free spirited and looking forward to her whole life in front of her. It could of been any of us, and it is sad to think that people who do not know her will just say that was sad and move on in their life not cherishing or knowing how good their life is and how grateful they should be in the position they are in . It really was an eye opener for, it made me feel more grateful for all the things i have today.

I've just after realising how long this blog post is so i should wrap it up soon.

I then found out that weekend that my brother who i love very much is applying to be a citizen of New Zealand is more than likely never to be coming home. The thing about this is that it just didnt suprise me. I was quite upset about this news but i think I always knew deep down that this was going to be the case. However i know i will see him over the coming years as i feel my life will bring to that part of the world .

All of these contrasting emotions and feelings are making me feel pretty down but putting them into this blog is making me feel alot better, so it seems the personal objective of this blog is working .

I must get some food and clean this filthy apartment, until next time....

Seán