Thursday and Friday have been a very interesting and eventful two days. It all started off with a party that I hosted on Thursday night. I've noticed a slightly worrying trend with the way I act when im drinking and I think it all due to the fact that I am drinking way too much and way too quickly. You would of seen from the earlier blog entry that I was quite ashamed of my behaviour from the party I was at on Tuesday night. Now I wasn't behaving like an asshole on Thursday night but unfortunately I was in a very drunken state. As the night wore on, I was very slow to react to different things and it was if I was on another planet. I didn’t notice when people were talking to me, I didn’t cop on to sarcasm coming my way and my efforts to impress the opposite sex were quite laughable. Before this college year, whenever I was drinking, I was drunk but I was always aware of what was going on around me and never that stereotypical person at a party who has had one too many. I seriously need to change my outlook on drinking and definitely must try to cut down on the amount of alcohol I put into my body.
Anyway I woke up the next morning and my room mates had already gone home and I must admit I felt quite lonely and ashamed. Not the best way to be feeling when you have an unsettled stomach and a pounding headache. Anyway I relaxed that day and eventually made my way to Maynooth where im staying with my cousins for the bank holiday weekend. I arrived and met my cousin who I would regard as one of my best friends, he told me his next door neighbour was having a party to celebrate his 18th birthday. Now, the first thing the sprung to my head was this girl I knew. To cut a long story short, she is this girl I met when I was like 16 or some shit and I got pretty close to her and I would always regard her as someone who I could always come to if I ever needed to talk or whatever. Anyway around that time I was crazy about her and it had been two years since I seen her last. I never really thought much about her as in the past two years I had alot going on in my life, Leaving Cert, starting college, working and a string of relationships. This girl is two years younger than me, im 19 and she is 17, the girl is like no one else I’ve met before, she is funny, smart, beautiful and she has this charm that is pretty irresistible. Now it happened that I texted her as she is friends with the people at this party . She told me she forgot about that party and that she couldn't make it as she didn’t have a lift. Saying that I was disappointed would be a complete understatement. However I received a text message from her about a half hour later stating that she is on her way. Obviously, my heart started to beat uncontrollably, with so many thoughts going through my head. It was great when I saw her, and she is as gorgeous as ever. Anyway she wasn’t drinking as she was driving and like I said earlier in this post, my behaviour and social awareness began to diminish. My cousin wouldn’t stop hassling me about her, telling me that I should try my luck and all this shit. I didn’t really know what I wanted to do but all I know was that I was sickened when she had to leave and the mood I was in turned from happy drunk to grumpy drunk. That said, I left the party soon after that and sent her a stupid text message about how I still love her and shit (Another stupid thing that i've done due to my drinking.) Anyway I woke up this morning and apologised for anything that I said, she was cool and told me not to worry about it. Anyway I hope I keep in contact with her and that it wont be 2 years until I see her again.
Anyway to the present! At the moment im just chilling in my cousins house for the long weekend and having withdrawal symptoms from the lack of internet! (It's actually killing me). Its Saturday afternoon that im writing this post and hopefully I will get it uploaded as soon as I can.
Till next time.
Sean.
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